Today was not my best day. It was sad, and full of tears and frustration and uncertainty.
I felt small. Unbelievably small and insignificant and inconsequential to God. My heart felt like it was going to break in tiny pieces. I didn’t know how today would end. I couldn’t understand why God let some things happen. I still don’t. But having my hope and faith in God reminded my soul that it is well.
My soul, it is well. O my soul, faint not. Trust in Him, my soul. It is well.
The wind and waves know Who he is. Mountains bow at his feet. My soul, it is well.
Faint not, my soul. He doesn’t miss a thing. He feels your pain. He has not forgotten you. He knows what’s happening in your heart. It is well. Whatever happens, faint not, my soul. My soul, I don’t know what tomorrow brings. But He does, and he says “it is well”.
Lately, I’ve felt worn. Spiritually tired. Overwhelmed. Doubtful. Unsure. Confused. Those feelings were coursing through me until five minutes ago. I opened up my iTunes and listened to Francesca Battistelli’s “Write Your Story”. Such an appropriate song for this time in my life. It reminded me that He is my king and my hope. It reminded me that I am His. That my life isn’t mine to write. I am done with trying to write my life. I’m giving up and letting God write His story. I’m letting him take over, so that at the end I can show the world what He’s done in me. I’ll let him leave his mark in my life. I want my life to be all about Him.
Trusting is scary. Giving up your life to someone else is not easy. You don’t know what that person is going to do with it. What if your life is completely turned around? What if you don’t know what to do? What if you’re uncomfortable with change? What if it’s hard? What if…
Good thing God knows what He’s doing, right?
Don’t be afraid. He’s with you every step of the way. Surrender. Give it all up. Let go. Let him work in you. Let Him make you his work of art. He is hope. He is safe.
Let God write his story.
But now, God ’s Message, the God who made you in the first place, Jacob, the One who got you started, Israel: “Don’t be afraid, I’ve redeemed you. I’ve called your name. You’re mine. When you’re in over your head, I’ll be there with you. When you’re in rough waters, you will not go down. When you’re between a rock and a hard place, it won’t be a dead end— Because I am God, your personal God, The Holy of Israel, your Savior. I paid a huge price for you: all of Egypt, with rich Cush and Seba thrown in! That’s how much you mean to me! That’s how much I love you! I’d sell off the whole world to get you back, trade the creation just for you. “So don’t be afraid: I’m with you.” (Isaiah 43:1-5 MSG)
When I started doodling on Instagram, I just did it for fun and decided to tag my favorite singer, Moriah Peters, as I had doodled one of her songs. She ended up “liking” it on Instagram, and I was happy to see that she’d seen it. This was an incentive for me, and I started drawing some more. I got comments from many people on my profile, saying great things about my doodles. It was then that I realized that I could use art and what I thought to be simple little doodles to spread Jesus. God has been so good to me, more good than what I deserve, and I want to hear Him say “well done”, which is why I draw. My gabydoodles are centered around those two words: well done.